I know I’m not the only one who has ever felt this way. And it really isn’t even the first time I’ve felt this way. Though I sure hope it’s the last, but more than likely probably not. You know when you’re cruzing through life and things are going pretty good. Maybe not perfect but for the first time in a long time you feel like things are starting to look up and maybe just maybe everything is gonna be ok. Then BAM!!! the rug gets pulled out from under you! You’re left angry, mad, betrayed, frustrated, lost, devastated (these are just a few of the feelings that I have going through me right now). I have no control and not even a say in the situation. It’s just, this is how it’s gonna be and you need to deal with it. I do realize this is just a bump in the road, all-be-it a very large pot hole in my road right now, I will get through it. What really angers me is that it’s not just me who it affects, but also my son. I hate this feeling!
Looking at the big picture I know that there are people in worse situations that mine and there are people who have to deal with worse than what I’m gonna have to deal with. And it could be so much worse. But in my world, at this very minute, this is devastating! And I’m mad! And I’m left wondering when I will ever feel like things are starting to look up again.